Why was it always February
When I fled for dear life
Like a deer in headlights I froze
Like a gazelle in the safari I fled
from a Lion in the Streets
I know the parable and perhaps
you know it too
that a sluggard Imagines a lion
in the streets
and doesn’t go out
because
of it
because of it
because of it
I fled
Every February I fled
What was I afraid of
Why am I still running
Something must have happened
that February day that I have run so fast and fallen so quick like a
flag at half mast
I’m aghast I’m confused
well whatever it was
I know he knows
He knows because he reacts
he isolates and retracts
he defends and defeats
himself in
repeat
he defends and defeats
himself in
ways I know not
Because I know not
what happened that February day
what was I chasing to have only to find
mistakes mistakes and an appointment divine
where would I go if I knew the answer
to the ache and weight of that February Day
To whom would I seek
for redemption and loss
To whom would I go
to tether the cross
I’m broken you see
and I know it knows
that February Day
That February Day
has escaped me you see to hide in the shadows and bring low my belief
That February Day it took more from me than I know
Something has happened this much I know
That February day will be resurrected
This much I know
He’s not finished yet
That February day cannot stand silent
it must speak and shout and scream the event
so that healing can happen
That February day that hurts so much
was February was February was February
too much

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